#jesus christ #look how horrified cas looks #he’s so fucking ashamed of what he did and who he was that it physically disgusts him #when you think about it #this is the first time he’s had time to think about who he was and what he did #and he’s disgusted #this is the first time he’s ever felt self-loathing#to look and see how far cas has come #from an angel of the lord; a rightous being full of grace #to a god; a corrupt god #it must physically sicken him #and that’s really heartbreaking
This breaks my heart, there’s something in his eyes that looks so dead, that it’s not even him anymore, like there’s no one home. Also I see fear, a lot of fear, his eyes glazing over and he looks so alone. He needed the Winchesters to stay with him, he was already somewhat suicidal when he got his memories back, with that and the added psychotic mode he’s going to fall into, God knows what he’s going to do.
I personally believe that Cas still doesn’t think he’s redeemed himself in his own mind, that what he did was to such a catastrophic level that it would take so much more in order to feel redeemed within himself again meaning that the possibility of him still wanting to die, or being kept dead, would be there.
He’s a ticking time bomb on all levels.
Tick tock, tick tock Cas.
What’s the matter Castiel, you don’t think you deserve to be saved?
And if I can’t tell you again, I’m sorry I ever did this to you.
i was severely disappointed with the lack of cas hugs in 7x17. so to make up for it I declare it CAS HUGS WEEK on my blog!!!!!!!!!!
and i know what you’re thinking, “you can’t start a week on a FRIDAY WHAT IS THIS BS” but you know what